gone mad??

i suppose. indeed. these few days i couldn't stop thinking of you. but it's alright, as you said that, it doesn't matter. (:

NOOOOO! T.T

As what you said, we are getting less time to be together. TT so why do you need to make such decision of leaving me after spm? =( you must carry out your promise with me okay??? ): you know, i scare that you might forget about me or people want to snatch you away from me! TT 8-10 months a my dear....8 to 10 days is enough to drive me gone mad you know?! )': you are my ONLY ONE! my TREASURE! dear, tell me, love could change your decision right?? T.T i wish it could. so that you will never never and never leave me here alone. i will be crying every every moment. i will be thinking of you all the time~ TT i know you are thinking of our future but you have to bring me along marh~ that's what we called couple right ): once you are gone, my life is bored, is blank... so please~never leave me! i love you dear! mwahhs~

i LOVE you the MOST!

my dear ah chung, do you know who can replace you? It is ah chung, andy ng aik tshong again. besides, do you know that who is that can make me cry badly? It is you, my lovely hubby again! you are just belong to me o dear~ never never try to run away from me. I angry because I want you to sayang me more, i can feel the sweetness^^ I moody because i dont want you to leave me alone. I cry because i want you to hug me tightly. I pretend to ask you to look for another girl is just to hear you say that you love me and never throw me away~ owh!how sweet it is! Dont take it serious to be getting angry/mad/moody with me my dear,I am afraid of it >.< i knew that once you hung up the phone, the first moment is still thinking of your lovely honey de..mwahh~ so i really enjoy it but i am trying my best to avoid as if you really get angry le. Actually the last call from you just now was suprising me! I wanted to ask you:"miss me le har? ><" but you hung up again. is okay~ (:at least i felt a lil happy le :P finally your voice turned out soft to me again.hehs. a sweet smile roughly appeared on my cheek. You know, once you talk to me softly, any bitterness, sadnesses...all gone! I am now longing the first message of you once you reached home will not be a "cold cold" one~ may my prayer comes true(: or else my ah chung sure wet wet again le(T.T). alriight~tik tok tik tok tik tokkkk.....waiting for my phone to vibrate(*dear text me)~

i just felt so alone=(

Please andy ng aik tshong, please my dear =(
I DID NOT LIE TO YOU! i kept on asking if i can skip the training la. =(
i also want to go out together with you ma.. how come you dont understand?=( hmm. You never believe what i say to you. ): it is now just a part of my life ma dear. If you still treat me as your beloved gf, just try to control your anger marh dear~=( it is too cruel to me onve you don bother me and pretend not to sayang me~ but i know you are still the one who love me much much~ (: i just hope that you could understand my feeling if i treat you like that too...='( the only fact that couldnt be changed is i love you the most! no one could replace you my dear~ MWAHHHSS~

do not go away from me :'(

"We had promised each other to study together after our SPM. i was so sad the moment u told me that you are going to leave me right after you got your SPM result. I do really hope that you will never go away from me ans so we will be able to stay together forever =( I would also get a heartache if i see you sacrifice for me. If you wait for me, you are going to waste a year, but why can't i just let go? :'( BECAUSE I CANT BEAR TO SEE YOU GO AWAY, I CANT BEAR TO LET OTHERS TO SHARE YOU! D': maybe it is just an excuse but i do really need you in my life... i will study hard so that i will not disappoint you..."

ANDY NG AIK TSHONG ~ the boy who i love deeply, the boy who i need in my life.. A strange starting point led us to be more happy and blessful. A message 'are you owen?' led us until today. =) i admired him at first i guess xP. Up to now, we still haven't realized how did we begin. do you, ah chung zai? xD he is a treasure for me =) we faced so so so many obstacles along the 1 and a half years. If i could turn the time back, i would not hurt him =( i know it does not make sense if i say i feel regret..."i promised i will try my best to be the best,trust me, can you?"........

Promises for the both of us =)
♥ both have to avoid argumentative issues
♥ to be more caring to each other all the time
♥ never lie to each other
♥ never keep secrets to oneself
♥ missing each other every single moment xP

31/4/10 the late post of us

it was the last day of april in 2010. and it was the most meaningful day in the month of april! actually i get to have dinner wif my big family but there was no more seats for the rest so i followed my cousin to the spring to have our own dinner--KIM BAY~ i called my dear to come wif me and i waited for him while i was accompanying my cousin to look for little xuan xuan's clothes. once he reached, he wanted to hold my hand but i rejected him as the time wasnt suitable for us.(my aunty was there). and i wasnt used to it. we started to argue. i was so stubborn =( sorry my dear.muackksss! after that, i tried to hold hand and we were successfully solved the problem of myself.i got the feeling~ WHEE~ i was so shy actually. XS feeling warm as well^^ then we got home by using ah chung's papa's car. the terrible matter came to us again~hmm! it was traffic jam all along the spring's carpark. the time was 1030 something and mummy suddenly called me up to scold me for not being at home at that time.(i was so shocked also la mummy >,< i didnt know the time was late already e), the scene changed badly while we all kept quiet at the moment as he was worrying about me. he didnt want me to get scolded by mummy. in a nick of time, finally i had reached my sweet home. thank you so much, uncle!=) honestly, i was shivering like hell once i stepped into my home but luckily mummy had fallen asleep as it was quite late already. 11pm. >.

4/5/10 day of us

i woke up at 6.37 this morning. i hugged my ah chung tightly. rushed out from my sweet place as it was 7 something and it took 10 minutes to owen's school. after taking owen to school, mummy send me to khs to get my netball stuffs certified. once i reached the school, the assembly was still going on. i was looking for my dearest darling but i couldnt find him~ how sad D: and the worst was, i didnt even walk to his class to look for him.HMM! if only the time could turn back, i would rather be late to get home. ;( i am very sorry for going back home instead of looking for him as we had not been seeing each other for few days. i knew he wouldnt listen to my any reasons, i knew he wouldnt be forgiving me, i knew that i was feeling regret after all... i cant deny that was my fault. we had quarrel for so many times, if only you could forgive me, give me some more times and let us to be continued until the forever ends. i love you, hubby ah chung!